So ya, I know I haven't posted in a long time, but I figure I've been struggling to find time to work out.. and my eating habits have fallen by the way side. I'm going to take the time and work these things out again. Frankly it's been harder so to speak to get into the mood lately. I got outside and do things with the dog more, but that's hard too only because it gets so cold.
Am I making excuses? I could be but I just.. I need to push myself and really start working out at the gym some more. For some time I could see definite improvements in how my body was starting to look, mind you it hasn't really turned into mush or anything and I've been maintaining my weight fairly easily I still need to continue. I suppose this could be something everyone goes through where they get to a point they just don't wanna do it anymore, maybe that's not right because I still wanna do it. Maybe it's just not finding the will to push myself anymore. I suppose it all went to hell after I put aside my habits for a week to enjoy myself. Since then I've really just had a hard time jumping back on the wagon and what I really need to do is roll my happy pudgy self back onto it.
There's been a few times where I've had things to post and wanted to update, I just didn't get into that either.. I'm sorry everyone who did read this.
I guess the first thing to say is total I lost 43 pounds on my own but I got the flu so I think that's actually increased a bit.. I'll have to weigh myself at some point and let people know the grand total thus far. I want to pick it up and figure out what I've stopped doing, or why rather. I could kind of use a push but either way I'll get to it whether it's under my own power or with the help of others.
I still want to be smaller, happier. I do want some muscle on my body but I'd like to be able to just run all day and have some kind of.. physique I guess? I wanna wear under a 2XL shirt.. (those are the max size for all the cool shirts, mind you.) I want to be able to go and do things and not have to worry about various things like whether or not I'll fit.. HELL.. I wanna fit into small places and be all "hah.. can't get me!" Unless the person is smaller.. then they can get me, in which case it's a moot point I guess. haha.
I want to smile, and while I was losing weight I was smiling, a lot. Like.. LOT.. A lot a lot. Lmao
I'll get on it again I suppose, I need to. Maybe I'll do some more working out at work and come home and walk Roxy, my chubby puppy. She needs the exercise. That has benefits for both of us. In fact I've got a story! I took her for a 2 mile walk the other night and by the time we'd finished I had to carry her up the stairs because her tubby love gut couldn't do it herself... She tried mind you, but got up one or two and BOOM.. couldn't do more. XD
